My ideal plan for this post was to recreate the picture of Beyonce when she announced her twins, but I tried that in Seville poolside and I don't look that great and not sure how into the photoshoot Will was so here I am, nothing quite as artistic unfortunately.
Also before we get to the really crux of this post can I just say, isn't it such a blogging and insta world thing to announce yourself "mama"? Not mummy, never mum, the chic French version of the word that only adorable babies (read no teenage boys) call you.
But anyway yeah, there is a little baby boy in my belly and I will one day be everything from a "mama" to "eurrrggg muuuum"!
I tell you this because a) I might start doing some more motherhood posts later down the line - maternity wardrobes, nursery tours, breastfeeding and birth stories *insert gritted teeth emoticon for that last one* - and I don't want it to look too random, like is she just suggesting maternity jeans for the elasticated waistband and all its waffle eating capabilities (I mean maybe but...)
and b) because it is obviously a massive thing in my life and like all big things in my life it helps me process them and get some perspective sharing them here.
and c) because if someone else out there is also processing this massive thing, then hi babe! I've been there, I am there.
Hannah Gale recently said about her little peanut, that she always thought people either did manic Monica style ovulation tests trying, or had a complete and utter surprise and she was somewhere in the middle. I feel sort of the same, I got to a point in my life whereas I was more worried about not getting pregnant than getting pregnant, and changed my contraception accordingly. Having said all that, it still felt like a big surprise when I saw that little stick form a plus sign, and it took me a little time and few ups and downs before I felt overall generally just good and excited about it, and I expect there will still be some down days, and I know I couldn't have had the up days without Will.
So yeah, I don't want to get into the nitty gritty for my future baby's privacy really, but basically I just wanted to say this blog may go baby (or just generally sleep deprived) crazy from November! And if you've just seen that little plus sign and feel overwhelmed, remember even if you are in a really good place relationship wise, are financially, emotionally ready to have a baby, it is ok to still question it and worry about it. But in my (and I believe most of the mumsnet people whose comments and forums I read when I was furiously googling things like "I am pregnant!") opinion you'll get to a place where you know it is a good thing, you know it is the best thing.
Wowza, an accidentally deep post for Sunday night. Now back to Love Island right?
PS. Pregnant or not craving carbs and meat - Tuscan style bangers and mash
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